Concerts :D

So, the biggest thing in my life at this particular second is concerts! I went to on Wednesday night, and I had so much fun! There's just something about lots of people, loud music, and being with friends that sounds very appealing to me, lol.

So on Wednesday night, I saw Alexisonfire, Anti-Flag, Saosin, and The Bled. All were amazing except The Bled. The funny thing is, is I pretty much had the tickets given to me. I don't really listen to any of the bands that often, but it was one of the better concerts I have been to. Now I like many of them, and listen to them a lot.

Now that I have been to one, I'm addicted! Haha. But after the concert, I went and looked to see what else was coming anytime soon, so I could go to another one! So now after much debate (Ahahahaha, those who know me are laughing :P) I am going to see many more concerts in the next couple of months!

This month, I am going to Rise Against on the 21st. I am so excited, love this band! Next month, I am going to Hedley on the 22nd, and Three Days Grace on the 29th. Again, Love these bands! Cannot wait to see them live! February there is the possibility of seeing Silverstein, Illscarlet, Protest the Hero, and The Devil Wears Prada. That will be fun too. March, I am going to Rascal Flatts and Taylor Swift. I know, big jump from like alternative to country, but I like it. Finally, May I am going to see Rent live. This will be so much fun, center stage first row!!

I'm starting to think it's a good thing I have a job :D

The picture is of Alexisonfire, it's my favorite one.

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A quick break from Social...

So, I realized its been a while since I have written in here and since I needed a break from social I decided now would be a good time to update it! Well, a lot has happened since the last time I wrote in here, and well quite frankly its been, well......eventful.

So, since last time, I have got myself a boyfriend and have been extremely happy. As much as I know it will suck to hear this for some people, but I think I am finally happy for once. Truly, genuinely happy. He's all I think about, I can't go a day without talking to him, and whenever I'm around him, I can't stop smiling. And this is why this blog is all about him and what I'm feeling.

I wake up every morning and think that it is all a dream. It's still very surreal and I can't seem to believe that someone feels that way about me. I mean, I have liked people, and I know how I feel about him, but for someone to return those feelings is amazing. If there is one set of lyrics that has any possibility of describing how I feel it would be these lines from Hedley's For the nights I can't remember:

"Because if falling for you girl is crazy,

Then I'm going out of my mind"

Well, everything except for the "girl" part obviously. But seriously, I never imagined that things would turn out this way.

It's so weird because I could like lots of guys, and they would never like me back, but as soon as I tell myself that I should probably not worry so much about it and everything will work out in the end, this happens. Now, it may seem like I am going out with him just because he asked me, but truth be told, I have liked him for over a year. I just always thought I didn't have a chance with him, so I distracted myself with other people.

This is one amazing feeling. I would hope that every person gets to experience this feeling at least once in their life time. It really is amazing how one person can make your heart skip so many beats.

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Thank You

This is all about the people I would like to thank.

First of all I would like to thank any of those people I have told that they "made my day", or something along that line. If I have ever said this to you, well that's because its true. Its funny things people say or do, or something nice that's said, little things that when I'm laying in bed, thinking about the day, really stand out and make me smile.

Second, I would like to thank the people who keep leaving the wonderful comments in my honesty box on facebook. As much as they are annoying because I have no idea who they are from, they really made me smile. They were a real wake up call and really boosted my self confidence. They made me rethink any of the negative things I might have felt before that. So, for all of this, I thank you!

Third, I would like to thank all of my friends. They have really pulled through this past week when things weren't so great. Everything from calling to make sure I was alright, and then just talking for a while, to just the smallest of smiles in the hallway. Even the smallest things help. I thank all those who show that they care.

Finally, my family. I saved this for last because they, without a doubt mean the most to me. I may not show it all the time, but I care for them with all my heart and don't know what I would do without them. I may get frustrated and angry with them, but when it comes down to it, if everyone walked out on me all of a sudden, I know I can turn to them and they will still be there. Not only are they my best friends, and know who I am, and not care that I sing or dance in public, I know they care for me too, unconditionally. They are the only people in the world who I could be yelling at one minute, and laughing about it the next. I love them, and would like to thank them a million times over, but even this is not enough for what they have given me.

Thank you to all once again!

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A week in the life....

I would love to have the power to dare certain people to live a week in my life. Thoughts, feelings, and everything that goes with it. I think there are very few people that would be able to pull through with a smile. Having a hard time understanding? Well let me put a few things into perspective for you.

5 years ago my parents got a divorce, yet to this day, can not be civil towards one another meaning most of the talking has to go through me. Not a problem? Lets put it this way. My parents get me to tell the other parent what makes them mad or angry. Considering they don't have the other parent to take it out on, I get the most of it. Ever heard the saying "Don't shoot the messenger"? Does not apply most of the time.

Then there's always the fact that no matter how hard I try, nothing I do seems adequate for my parents and I am not "as important" as the rest of my siblings. There has been one game this soccer season where both of my parents have been there. I think there has been all but one for my sister. Yea, my sister is 4 years younger meaning she has many more years of basketball, and this is my last season of soccer because I physically can not play anymore (long story, I'll write about it another time).

Then there are my friends. Most of the time things are great, but lately I have been having problems with one friend in particular. So, my best friend is a guy and my friend likes him. So in her opinion, whether she chooses to admit it or not, I am the "competition", and she has to "get rid of the competition". Yea, so now she is trying to get his attention and steal his hat and sit by him at every opportunity, and make sure I'm never around him. FYI, I'm NOT going anywhere and you'll just have to get used to me and him being best friends that pretty much do everything together.

And these are only some of the things that go on on a daily basis. Still think I have it easy? I'm not complaining about my life, just saying its not as easy as some people think. Anyway, that was my rant for the day...
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Halloween...

I guess you could say I have a small obsession with Halloween. I love it! There are parties, dressing up, and all the creepy and weird things that go along with it.



So I had a party on Friday night, and I went to a party on Saturday night. Yes, I like to party. Any who, Friday night was so much fun!! We danced and hung out, and played games, pretty much whatever we wanted. Saturday night was fun too. Because I didn't know many people at Brittany's I got to meet a lot of cool people. I met one guy and he was so nice! We spent a lot of time together and just had lots of fun!
I love to dress up, and I dressed up as a nerd!! Anyway, I just wanted to say how much I loved Halloween, and for more pictures, check out facebook :D
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Stupid Physics!!!

Physics has pretty much ruined my life!! I see it everywhere! I can't even play soccer without thinking about how the foot on the ball is the action and the ball on the foot is the reaction! I wonder if anyone has ever gone crazy because of physics?? That might explain a lot, haha. I miss a life that made sense and I didn't have to worry about stupid physics, and actions and reactions :(
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Masks....

I once read something about how everyone wears a mask and how we can never really be ourselves. This made me think about why. Why can't we let people in and see the real us? Why do we have to be perfect? Why do we have feel like we need to hide constantly because of who we are?

Now ask yourself this, if you weren't perfect would your friends still be there for you? If they are true friends they would regardless of what you wear or what you own. Do you really think that if you weren't good looking everyone would just walk out on you? If you think any of this, maybe its time you find yourself some new friends. Ones that wouldn't walk out on you if something happened.

I have been thinking a lot and even I put on a mask. I guess that's part of the reason I started this blog. I can write anything in here and no one will take it personally and I can just vent and won't have to explain it later. I'm not sure why I have to wear a mask. I'm sure I would still have friends even if I wasn't always happy, or wasn't as pretty or smart.

Another reason I wear a mask is because I have troubles letting people in. Ever since my parents split up, I have only let very few people see the real me, and it seems that every person I let in ends up hurting me anyways, even if its not on purpose. It's going to take a lot to get myself to let people see who I really am, but I'm working on it. So if I hold out to far, give it time, I will let you in. You may have to just let me know, and show me that you won't hurt me. I'm not going to go into how, or who, hurt me, just know that I have had problems in the past that's going to take some time to get over. All I ask is if I let you, don't hurt me. I've been hurt enough.

Why wear a costume when we wear so many masks?

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P.S. This is the real me.....

Aha!

I, Melissa, am a very loud person :D

And this is the theory I have come up with as to why I am so loud:

I play soccer and I play in goal. This position involves much yelling. But I have also been told, that for a goalie, I am very quiet. So basically I am confused as to wether I am loud or quiet. Yes, I know, its all in perspective. And if this theory fails, my mom says I can just blame it on her :P

On another note, I have to say I quite pleased at how this week turned out. I thought it was going to end up horrible after a few events, but it was all good in the end. I have a good mark in Social, soccer was good (we won 3-1 tonight and are now 2-0-0), friends are good, and life in general is good :D

This week is going to be exciting!! The party is in one week, as in seven days. Yea, I've been counting down for weeks now. Also, Nose Hill on Wednesday. I've never been, so I am Very excited for it. You could say more excited than some people :D

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What a Wonderful Song

As the title suggests, I really enjoy a song called Bubbly. The song is by Colbie Caillat and these are the lyrics:

I've been awake for a while now
You make me feel like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'Cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you gowherever you go

I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

Ahh, the feeling of love. Butterflies, weak knees, and the inability to talk.

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Intro

This blog is all about me.

My thoughts, what I'm feeling, interesting things I find, and pretty much whatever I want.

I don't know how many people will read it.

Some things people may find offensive, but don't take anything personal, it's just how I feel that particular time of day.

Hope you enjoy reading it :D