A quick break from Social...

So, I realized its been a while since I have written in here and since I needed a break from social I decided now would be a good time to update it! Well, a lot has happened since the last time I wrote in here, and well quite frankly its been, well......eventful.

So, since last time, I have got myself a boyfriend and have been extremely happy. As much as I know it will suck to hear this for some people, but I think I am finally happy for once. Truly, genuinely happy. He's all I think about, I can't go a day without talking to him, and whenever I'm around him, I can't stop smiling. And this is why this blog is all about him and what I'm feeling.

I wake up every morning and think that it is all a dream. It's still very surreal and I can't seem to believe that someone feels that way about me. I mean, I have liked people, and I know how I feel about him, but for someone to return those feelings is amazing. If there is one set of lyrics that has any possibility of describing how I feel it would be these lines from Hedley's For the nights I can't remember:

"Because if falling for you girl is crazy,

Then I'm going out of my mind"

Well, everything except for the "girl" part obviously. But seriously, I never imagined that things would turn out this way.

It's so weird because I could like lots of guys, and they would never like me back, but as soon as I tell myself that I should probably not worry so much about it and everything will work out in the end, this happens. Now, it may seem like I am going out with him just because he asked me, but truth be told, I have liked him for over a year. I just always thought I didn't have a chance with him, so I distracted myself with other people.

This is one amazing feeling. I would hope that every person gets to experience this feeling at least once in their life time. It really is amazing how one person can make your heart skip so many beats.

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Thank You

This is all about the people I would like to thank.

First of all I would like to thank any of those people I have told that they "made my day", or something along that line. If I have ever said this to you, well that's because its true. Its funny things people say or do, or something nice that's said, little things that when I'm laying in bed, thinking about the day, really stand out and make me smile.

Second, I would like to thank the people who keep leaving the wonderful comments in my honesty box on facebook. As much as they are annoying because I have no idea who they are from, they really made me smile. They were a real wake up call and really boosted my self confidence. They made me rethink any of the negative things I might have felt before that. So, for all of this, I thank you!

Third, I would like to thank all of my friends. They have really pulled through this past week when things weren't so great. Everything from calling to make sure I was alright, and then just talking for a while, to just the smallest of smiles in the hallway. Even the smallest things help. I thank all those who show that they care.

Finally, my family. I saved this for last because they, without a doubt mean the most to me. I may not show it all the time, but I care for them with all my heart and don't know what I would do without them. I may get frustrated and angry with them, but when it comes down to it, if everyone walked out on me all of a sudden, I know I can turn to them and they will still be there. Not only are they my best friends, and know who I am, and not care that I sing or dance in public, I know they care for me too, unconditionally. They are the only people in the world who I could be yelling at one minute, and laughing about it the next. I love them, and would like to thank them a million times over, but even this is not enough for what they have given me.

Thank you to all once again!

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A week in the life....

I would love to have the power to dare certain people to live a week in my life. Thoughts, feelings, and everything that goes with it. I think there are very few people that would be able to pull through with a smile. Having a hard time understanding? Well let me put a few things into perspective for you.

5 years ago my parents got a divorce, yet to this day, can not be civil towards one another meaning most of the talking has to go through me. Not a problem? Lets put it this way. My parents get me to tell the other parent what makes them mad or angry. Considering they don't have the other parent to take it out on, I get the most of it. Ever heard the saying "Don't shoot the messenger"? Does not apply most of the time.

Then there's always the fact that no matter how hard I try, nothing I do seems adequate for my parents and I am not "as important" as the rest of my siblings. There has been one game this soccer season where both of my parents have been there. I think there has been all but one for my sister. Yea, my sister is 4 years younger meaning she has many more years of basketball, and this is my last season of soccer because I physically can not play anymore (long story, I'll write about it another time).

Then there are my friends. Most of the time things are great, but lately I have been having problems with one friend in particular. So, my best friend is a guy and my friend likes him. So in her opinion, whether she chooses to admit it or not, I am the "competition", and she has to "get rid of the competition". Yea, so now she is trying to get his attention and steal his hat and sit by him at every opportunity, and make sure I'm never around him. FYI, I'm NOT going anywhere and you'll just have to get used to me and him being best friends that pretty much do everything together.

And these are only some of the things that go on on a daily basis. Still think I have it easy? I'm not complaining about my life, just saying its not as easy as some people think. Anyway, that was my rant for the day...
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