Angels

Okay, so I feel like blogging tonight.


This one is dedicated to a few very important people in my life; mainly L and G.

I am starting believe with my whole heart that they were sent from heaven to protect me. I truly believe they are my angels. Okay, so this blog is going to take a lot of guts and is probably going to be one of the more shocking and most brutally honest ones yet.

Alright, so here it goes. L and G, you have saved me many times. You have been there for me on countless occasions, seen me at my worst, and helped me through more than you could ever imagine, and you still are there for me. But this time you saved my life.

Now please don't go and think that I'm crazy and want to kill myself or anything. It's just sometimes life gets way too much for me to handle. There have been a few times where I have thought that everyone would probably just be better off without me. No more drama, no more having to come to my rescue, nothing. Now I won't go into details or explain much, because frankly, there's reason I have never said anything. But I will admit this; I know I have fallen into depression a few times now. Thanks to your help and support I was able to pull through and be okay again.

With everything that has gone on lately, I knew you would be there. Now I have no idea how you do it G, but you ALWAYS seem to know the exact moment to say or do something. You don't even have to be near me. Seriously, you could be half way around the world and still know what to say, knowing absolutely nothing at all. So when I got that text this morning, I smiled. Let me put it this way, this week has been terrible. I was all alone by my locker, just thinking and my pocket starts vibrating. I thought maybe it was Sean cancelling or Brian letting me know he wasn't going to be there today, but no, it was you simply asking how I was. That two line text made my whole day. Even as I sit and think about what happened, 15 hours ago, I still smile. Then talking to you tonight and reading your blogs, well I smiled again. You helped me yet again with family problems, then topped it off with a blog that meant more to me than if someone would have given me a million dollars.

L, you amaze me time and time again. All it took to make me feel even the slightest bit better, was a hug in the hall way. Then I wrote you a letter. Your reply made me so happy. Reading that note was the first time I had smiled the whole day. I was genuinely happy. I knew someone cared and that's all that mattered to me.

So, to both of you, I love you both with all my heart. You are my true family. The ones who actually care and love me as well.

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