A Scar Too Deep

Who knew that things that were said, and names I had been called a good 8-10 years ago would come back to hurt me today.

Years ago, I was called fat and ugly for years. That still affects me even today. It left a scar so deep I am not sure it will ever be fully repaired. I still am, and probably always will look and myself and criticize something or another.

I wish this was different, but at this time, I can't control it. I could be told a million times that I'm beautiful, but that only seems to be said when I'm upset, so I am never sure if its true. I am only called beautiful by one person who might actually mean, but even now, that may be a lie.

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