Selfish

Okay, I'm going to be selfish for a little bit here. Just a little rant.

I guess its hard to love something so much and have none of your family want to share that with you. Is it really that hard to give up a couple of hours to see what I've done? I was really proud of it this time. I did more than juts push a button. Whatever happen to you being proud of me?

Also, when will I get my time with my dad? That's all I've been asking for weeks now. Then all of a sudden my sister gets to do my absolute favorite thing with my dad; go to a hockey game. That used to be our thing, and now everyone wants to go? That's hard to deal with. If you want to get me a gift that will make me cry this Christmas, get me a day out with just my dad. That would do it.

Okay, honestly guys, is it really that hard to include us? I mean, this show means the world to her but shopping is more important? And since where do you get the idea that you can say things like "It's just a show, who really cares about it anyway? It's not like it's important anyway"? It may not seem like a big thing, or may not be something you're interested in, but its what a lot of us want to do for the rest of our lives. This is what we had been doing for 3 months, so yeah, it was kind of a big deal. Even if it was "only two shows".

I don't understand you anymore. All I want to know is where you stand, what your feelings are towards me. I don't even care if you don't like me, this guessing game is killing me. But I guess I can't blame you, I can't seem to just say that I like you. I mean, is it really that hard? Apparently. But, what I do ask of you is that if you don't like me, please stop standing so close. It's kind of hard to breath.

Follow your heart. Don't do this for me, or for her, or for family or friends. Do this for yourself. If your heart says go, go. If not, stay here. But whatever you do, do NOT regret it. If things don't work out, use it as a learning experience. You are an amazing person who deserves someone equally amazing. Now, I have never met this person but from what hear/read she has a giant heart that has room for something potentially incredible. Don't stay because you're afraid and don't go because you feel you have to, do what you in your heart know is right. That is the path you should take.

Love for all

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