Ouch

"I can't trust that if someone calls or something comes up that she'll stay here."

Twist the knife a little more why don't you? Situation; parents are going away for the weekend meaning me and my sister have to stay alone. Problem; she thinks I'm going to go out all weekend and never be home. I have already promised to only work Friday night and Sunday night, not to go out at all, and spend all weekend with her.

That comment was followed by a "Sorry, I just can't trust her." Wow, never would I have thought that my family wouldn't take my word. Never would I just ditch anyone in my family after promising that. Never.

I hate being here lately. I have to walk on eggshells whenever I'm here otherwise I'll end up pissing someone off. I have to be someone I'm not, just to make people happy. It sucks. I have been thinking about living with my mom, but then again, I would really miss my dad. The other people here I wouldn't really care, since they clearly don't care for/about me.

So I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not sure how much longer I can do this.

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