Shock

Complete shock is what it was. What it still is. I still don't understand.



I guess there's not much to understand though is there? I should know, I was there. Just one day, that day where life just gets too much to handle anymore, you snap. I get it. Luckily we both pulled through. I know it may still seem like its the only choice, probably will for a while, but trust me, it's not. We (and right now I'm speaking for all your friends, those at the hospital, those who's thoughts were with you, the people you may not even know about) all love you. I know that you are one of my best friends! It may not seem like it, but you definitely have helped me more than you could ever imagine. I owe you big time now!



I guess it takes something like this to really open your eyes, really show you how important people are. And you are definitely important to me. Man, I don't know what I would have done if I lost you. Honestly, you are one of the few people that I can openly talk to.



I know people probably say this so much that it means nothing anymore, but seriously, I'm here if you need to talk. In fact I WANT you to talk to me, rant to me, ask for advice, tell me things. I know usually I can't give much advice or be much help, but this is one area I can help. I've been on both sides of things, multiple times. I can tell you what helped me, what got me through each day, how to avoid those hard situations. I just need you to be okay again.



You are my angel! You have been through all this, and I know it will just make you stronger. Just remember, you are here for a reason, a purpose. And that everything happens for a reason. For whatever reason, you may not know it now, or anytime soon, but one day you will figure it out, this happened to you, to us, for a reason. One day it will make you stronger.



We love you! I'll be praying for you, and maybe I'll be able to make it out to see you soon. It's the least I can do.



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