Nothing. You did absolutely nothing. Knowing this, I'll write and explain it all here, but please note, not everyone will like everything I write here.
Not every time that I seem sad or upset is something wrong. A lot of the time I just have way more to think and worry about then I can even imagine. Last week was a perfect example.
Last week I had main stage, Mamma Mia, Jubilee, an exam every day, work, homework, ect. Its just been a little insane. But you understand this, I know that.
Main stage is ALWAYS the highlight of my day. The people there are amazing and I just have so much fun being there. Its such a great environment to be in and lets me forget all about the everyday stresses I have. I love being there.
Mamma Mia, even though it's generally at unbelievably early times when NO ONE should be at school (hehe, just kidding), I still love doing it. I always learn something there and it makes me feel like I have a specific job for tech. It's great.
The Jubilee was also amazing! I never imagined I would learn so much in such a small amount of time! Even the people there were so inviting and everyone was willing to show me something. Being there just made me want to do that for a career that much more. I love the atmosphere of any theatre. I can not wait until that is my job.
School has been the most stressful thing for me to focus on. As much as I want good grades and what not, I can't help but think that most of this is dumb and my time would be much better used elsewhere. I can barely fit homework into my schedule, but I wouldn't cut out any of the tech out of my schedule.
On top of all of this, I have so much more to deal with every day. I guess one of the main reasons I have seemed so distant this past week was I have been trying to figure out if I really do in fact like the guy I think I like. This can be the most confusing part in anyone's life. After you figure that out, you have to figure out whether they may like you as well, and if you should tell anyone and if so who? Every time I find a reason to believe he does return my feelings, I also find one for the opposite. It's extremely difficult. Also, as of now, I've told a total of two people about it and that was hard enough. I just don't want to hurt or upset anyone with how I feel. But as of now, I feel like I need to say something, even if it is just one here, because I really want this to work. I don't want to have to wonder anymore.
So, I'm sorry I have been so weird lately, life caught up to me, I was holding too much in and I guess I couldn't hide it anymore. But please, don't worry about me, and if you do, don't be afraid to question me on it!
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Thanks again for the clarification, I just hope things slow down for you soon so that you have lots more time to enjoy life without the pressure of a heavy schedule.
"...let her know you're there for her..."
Again, I guess I do have to admit that guys can be confusing (now you have it in writing), but we're just as confused about you girls. I can't and won't try to give you any advice, but I personally think that overall, just saying it and being perfectly clear about your feelings is better than letting it eat you up from the inside. I know quite a few guys who would rather wait in hope that she'll say something rather than ever taking the risk themselves. But I know you'll make the right choice for you, so just know that I'm here for you :)
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