15 More Random Facts

Okay, I decided that "I like this" or "I dislike this" wasn't the greatest 20 facts about me, so I'll post some more here.

1. I think the hardest thing in the world is having something in sight, yet not being able to reach it or get to it. I know that if I just took that one little step I could have something very special. But I can't. It's right there and I just can't seem to get to it.

2. I seem to think about only one thing lately. It's quite annoying because it's the thing I can't get to. Yet, all day long I wonder about them. I mainly wonder if they wonder about me though.

3. Right now my favorite movie is Ocean's Eleven, though I'm not sure it's because of the actual movie. I think it's because of the memories I tie to it. That was one of the best days I've had in a long time and can not wait to do it again soon.

4. My perfect day is not one of going to a spa or exotic places, it is one a lot like yesterday. Sure, I wrote an exam, but that was fine. It was more hanging out with 2 of my favorite people in the whole world. Yes, other people were there, but it really didn't make a difference, we kind of kept to ourselves. Then we left.

5. It was hard for me to hear I was ditching my friends for new people, by someone who rarely hangs out with me. Do I really leave that much? Should it really matter?

6. I tend to drift towards the people who act like they want me around. They stop acting like that, I find someone new. I'm not sure why I do this, but I do. It might be so that I prevent myself from being hurt again, or maybe I'm just not a people person. Whatever it is, it's me.

7. I write because if I don't, things get too bottled up inside of me and I tend to become depressed. I wish it weren't like this, but since February/March last year it has been. I've gotten used to it, and recognize the signs now. Most of the time I help it before it happens and I'm fine, but there is the occasional downfall. Some times it is short and some times it's a long period of time, but no matter what it is, I don't let people see it.

8. Okay, I'll admit it, I have a celebrity crush on Brandon Kozun. He's an amazing hockey player, and kind of cute too :P

9. I love smiling. I'm really not sure what it is about that certain muscle movement, but it's an amazing feeling. A real, genuine smile. The one you have when you're truly happy. It's the greatest feeling in the world.

10. I wish I still danced. I find dance so beautiful and every time I see it I wish I was still apart of it.

11. I wish I could play soccer again. Soccer was my life for 13 years. I played and practiced and was actually really good at it. At one point I had the best goalie record in the league. Teams years older than me wanted me to play for them. It was the one thing in my life I was really, truly good at without trying. It was hard to give that up and now every time I go watch a game I just want to play so badly. I enjoy being good at something.

12. I haven't really ever liked the way I looked. I've always wanted to be skinnier and prettier, just like all the other girls. That's why I hate having my picture taken. There are very few pictures I actually like of me. It's the one thing I wish I could be more positive about.

13. I really need more hours in a day. Between school, tech, work, and keeping my families happy, aka chores and 'family time', there's barely time to sleep. Even tomorrow on my 'day off' I have a giant list of things I have to do.

14. I'm starting to regret taking Work Experience. I didn't need the credits, and it's definitely proven to be more work than I intended on. The actual hours aren't bad, it's the paperwork that's going to kill me.

15. GMG is the greatest thing in my life at the moment. I don't know what I would do without you two. You are my rocks, and I really hope we continue this after high school. And I'm starting to think that once Witness is over we need to start having movie days more often since they're so much fun!!

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