What have I done?

Will someone please inform me of what I've done wrong?

I seem to be getting a few people either telling me I screwed up or telling me I'm mad at them. Seriously, I didn't think I was doing anything wrong. I've just been keeping to myself, doing the things I need to do, and trying not to impose on anyone. The next thing I know there's drama all around me.

First I get a text basically telling me I was mad at someone even though I had barely seen them for a few days. I wasn't purposefully ignoring anyone, I was just doing things and real busy. I was told to forget that it even happened.

Now today I'm getting pretty much yelled at over tape? I'm sorry you never put the tape on when we all were.....I really didn't think it was that big of a deal. As far as I know none of us were opposed to you putting it on. I think if any of us were it would be because it's our inside joke. There's a whole story behind it that you just don't understand. Then you tell me you feel like we're pushing you out. Well the three of us do a lot together, and now all of a sudden you want to join? Maybe you're the one trying to force yourself in. Now don't get me wrong, we're very open to new people, I think it's just you want to be apart of everything we've already done, which isn't possible. Try to understand that it's been the 3 of us since almost the beginning of the year. This tape thing is just one more thing that brings us together. Whenever I see the tape it reminds me of them, as pathetic as it sounds, it's just another part of my life. And as much as you may hate to hear it, those two are a HUGE part of my life. I'm not sure what I'd do without them.

Then you told me I was talking down to you. I don't understand this at all! You barely come to rehearsals and when you do, you don't really do much. This has been my life pretty much for a while, and I just take pride in doing a good job for it. So I guess its just hard for me to sympathize for you, since you had no interest in rehearsals from the beginning. After all of this, I was told to forget about it.

I see a trend developing here. It's like people decide to throw all of this at me to make me feel like shit, then tell me to forget about it so I can't bring it up again. It SUCKS!

Basically emotionally the last few days have sucked you could say. But I'll get over it soon. I think the three of us should hang out more though, I'm mainly happiest then =]

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